Same old story, I'm sure you've heard it a ton of times. Hustled to grow a career, did pretty good at it, but eventually burned out — without realizing I'd conditioned my nervous system in ways that aren't sustainable, accumulating things I didn't need.
I wrote a blog back in 2016 about the direction I wanted to head in my life. It's 2026 now, and I realized I'm so far from that person. I need something that keeps me accountable and away from distractions. This is how I'm trying to find my way back.
the crazy thing is, i knew this stuff a while ago. but the part i struggle with is acting on it. it's like i wanted to watch myself self-sabotage.
i've been chasing instant hits my whole life. dopamine. quick wins. fast feedback. the kind of work that feels like progress but doesn't add up to anything. lostaf is me walking in the other direction. slow work. nervous system regulation. the kind of progress that doesn't feel like progress until it's been compounding for a while.
i built the back end for myself first. that's the honest version. these tools are what i needed to get out of my own loop. if you're walking away from the fast feedback you've trained your brain to need, this might also serve you.
no subscription. no price. no upsell. just what i'm using, shared.
— nik