it is very easy to think you are a person of integrity before the world really hurts you.
I've kept my integrity, and I've lost it,
I try not to judge myself for when I did or didn't, I remind myself that I am both.
Building some sort of interactive journal to keep me focused in the right direction, if anyone likes it, they can use it too.
longer notes from me — things i'm working through, things i've watched, things that landed.
i have a massive amount of self-awareness. i thought that meant i was changing. on the build phase trap, the shadow contract, and what execution actually costs.
burnout, the 2016 blog, the dopamine loop, and why i built lostaf for myself first.
on the deep dark hole, the soft voice that won't go away, and the hand that reaches in.
i started writing this because i couldn't shake the feeling that the more i was accomplishing, the worse i felt inside.